Well, its another day. My significant other has decided he wants to go to welding school, which rocks. And which also means Im going back to work, which rocks as well. We will definitely need an income while he persues this venue. I want to go to work, for a feeling of refreshment, I work now - but, its a cleaning job, and it BLOWS. I wish I could be trusted..that didn't come out right. I wish HE would trust ME. Because I dont know how much longer I can go on like this. The 20 questions, the inability to go out and do things, not that a have people beating down my door to do stuff with me, but having an option to go out is nice. Although I guess I ruined it for myself, but still....boo. 

My mother hates me, literally.  My dad is pissed at me. Im almost thirty and STILL can't please them. My siblings are on top of the world, and can do no wrong; Im not jealous, truly, they just have it a little easier because of all my screwups. Now my parent are alot more lenient. It does get on my nerves, but its not jealousy. I feel like I deserve the *most-embarrassing-daughter-of-the-year* award. And my Dad would be more than pleased to give it to me. If he had time that is, which he doesnt, so I needn't be getting ready for any award ceremonies as of yet.

This totally sounds like a poor-me journal, but it's not. I talk abt this kinda stuff with close people in my life, but Id rather, in all honesty, just type it and get it out and have no response to what I am saying. Its alot better than being agreed with. Id rather get nothing - then a bunch of head nods.

Cheers